What a year – I am utterly exhausted.
I haven’t yet decided if it’s that I get tired more easily, the world is more tiring, or some grand combination (complication?) thereof. Every year I try to take these weeks to refuel, rejuvenate, or at least relearn to pretend that my curiosity about the world has returned. Every year I fear it won’t happen, I feel a little less there than I did the year before, and then I do it all over again – usually better than the year before.
But it gets harder to smile so much, and fun becomes work rather than the other way around.
Everything I’ve done lately has told me I need to play and experiment more, and not less. I need to trust myself, and the languages I know. I need to make less ‘to do’ lists and stop being so anal about web documentation (and everything else that this kind of behavior connotes).
My new year’s resolution is to let go just a li’l bit more. Who’s with me?